well, its 4:09 am now~ and Im still awake...   im BAD~!!

 

                       recently i was busy on all these shitty danm exams, 

 

                             and i was wondering who the hell was the 1st stupid idiot who invinted 'exams', this person needs to be blamed forever by every single creature in this planet.. god, im now hate she or he (whatever) sooooo much~ oh yes, sooo much!!

 

                 

           although there are still 2 exams left (I should have used the big F*** word for GOD's sake), but I found that myslef is deeply interested in some kinda history staff, <THE LOST CIVILIZATION>  in particular~!! its just so fascinating, THE ATLANTIS, THE MU..  i totaly think we are turely existed, no imaginary, no making ups.

 

         also I start to reading about EDGER CAYCE who is a psychic, I bought 2 books of him from AMAZON and I hve received them yesterday, no time to read yet, but they will be what im gonna read for the entire summer~ haha

 

        Other alllllll unkonwn staff im also interested in, maybe i am just too curious..

   curious about the origin of mankind, what was there million years ago, UFOs, universe, universal power, mystery creature such as mermaid and ghosts...the mystery halls of records under sphinx under the left palm which has the records about the atlantis civilizations, super nature, past-lifes and souls....  

 

           oh yeah, since I have mentioned the word 'Summer' I need to say that I am going bk to CHINA-BEIJING (MY LOVELY HOMETOWN) this summer.. i am soooo happy about it, 2 years in UK already drived my half-mad, one more month i will be completely mad and will be in some kind of MENTAL HOSPITAL, stayin in some cages~haha

 

        god, the sky shows some blue now~~ I think its time for sleeping...

       

                                                                    tomorrow is another bloody boring day...

 

                      well, think about the positive side, only 2 exams to go and 10 more days..240hours,14400 minnues and 864000 seconds........ FUCK FUCK!!!

  

                                i dont want to revise any fuckin more!!    

 

just last thing: what are we havin these exams for? for our future, but actually our future is already limited in a certain circle, if we think about it then we will know that the government is controlling everything.

 

what if government is hiding some conspiracy? what if government is not trustable at all?

what if our whole life is just in control in the hands of others? 

 

earth has splited into countries, countries are ruling by certain people, I am sure they more or less used some dark tricks to be what they are now and to get what they want, government is made of thousands of 'top secrets' which are things that mustnt to be known by their people, what is this all about??

 

therefore can I still believe what I am believing now, how can I be sure that I am not like a puppet which plays by someone else?       

why do we need government? why do we need to be ruled? why do we splited in to countries? why cannt we share the land?

 

political is a subjects that teaches using of language, movements, tricks, conspiracies to fool people, to take control, to get what they want. it is dark and selfish, cruel and cold-blooded... I cant believe I ve been living with  such a hateful, abominable, detestable and loathsome thing for such a long time, they brought wars and killings...they are just devil wearing angel's mask....

 

     whats this life all about?  what can be trusted after all?  are we involved in a conspircy from the moment of our birth       ??       world is dark and human are the most dangerous devils.